To Myself in Years from Now

It's been a long time...... It has been so long that now I caot summarize what happened anymore..... I lost so much..... I gained so much...... And now I caot write like before...... Now, words don't come in persian like before..... What I lost most is myself though..... Now, I read the posts before.... But I don't remember the context anymore..... Specially the last one..... But I know one thing..... I slept at some point.... Now I need to wake up..... But I caot...... I need something..... I need someone...... And I keep tuing in circles...... Lost...... Not being able to find my way...... I keep crying at nights...... I keep praying for that last moment..... that last light...... +"Le Moulin" was being played last night when I was playing with Ala..... And I got reminded of here instantly..... It was like a snap..... And memories kept flooding in..... And I had to come back and check it...... I showed it to him...... I was shocked that it is still here...